life as you live it

Wasteland links

2005-04-06T16:54:00.001-07:00

http://www.vanderbilt.edu/AnS/english/English151W-03/wasteland.htm
http://eliotswasteland.tripod.com/
http://world.std.com/~raparker/exploring/thewasteland/explore.htm
http://www.bibliomania.com/0/2/283/1953/frameset.html

sugar is better...

2005-03-29T22:32:00.000-08:00

while drinking diet coke..
decided to waste my time online...
it turned out to be (don't know how accurate but..) v. interesting

avoid aspartame!
if u wanna know why~ check out this link http://www.answers.google.com/answers/threadview?id=322531

too bad..i finished the can before hitting that site

its almost always better to stick to o-naturale~*

ooops...

2005-03-29T21:43:00.000-08:00

its 12:43am at Robarts...
i wanted to listen to music so hooked my earphones in..
then after about 3mins realized that the earphones werent working but i could still hear the music..
it was playing very loud in public...everyone else could hear it
2min later a girl approached me with a comment, not to play my music aloud
... ~_-*
how embarassing..

it was then that i realized,,
we live in highly personalized private world...
is it a social norm?
no one would dare yell out loud in a library
no on would dare play music aloud in a library
~it never even occurred to me to do it...what i did was an accident, a mistake

but arbitrarly, playing music aloud isn't an accident or a mistake
we are defined by our context

but alone, individually it is an expression of ourselves
not to express that outward but keep it private within ourselves... does it mean that we are ashamed?
why should we be ashamed by the very things that define us? our context?
why should we even live in a world where our surroundings induce us to be ashamed of what it makes us 'be'?

but what could be the harm?
anarchy
...is it truly freedom?

why do i feel so suppressed by the very norms that keep this society together?
im tired of civilization and its superficial rules and fascade

but then again..would it be any different in a rural town.?
i doubt it

it seems freedom can only be found in the totality of nature...
i wish for a forest
with high mountains and deep waters
where i can stand
and scream!!!!!!!

why? is it a justification for my existence or even my presence in the enormity and almost eternal deceitfully static-likeness of it all?

maybe.

...havent blogged in a while...

2005-03-27T09:04:00.000-08:00

it's too time consuming...
well... its almost the end of the year..and things are bound to get
cramped again.. so here i am. blogging again..

btw
HAPPY EASTER~! *laaa~*

my sis is mad cuz i made my family miss the 12 mass cuz i was sleeping.. ^^*
aiee....such a sleepyhead, i didnt even hear the phone ring...
now awake and waiting for them to pick me up

=) it was nevertheless v. fun last night

went over to J/s to study..studied a bit iguess...hehe.....then
we got so addicted to this game with coveyor belts and spikes ...
still gotta beat R/s score of 58...hehe so addictive~ high scores get beaten too fast~*
then we ate those "inside out" oreos~ i think they taste better than the originals *yums*~ i think we almost finished the box... hehe
J/s keyboard is strange... the 'u' spells 'i' and the way the keys around it are kinda shifted and types the letter over... haha~ strange and probably an incomprehensible explanation there... translation: the key board is doing funny things...
we had a deep talk last nite... it was a really nice moment...we hadnt really talked and talked and talked like in what seems like a v. long time =) it was lovely.. *^^*
*smiles* i missed talking like that...but it left me so sleepy that i didnt even see R leave for mass. ^^*
so here i am..munching on oreos for bkf.. addictive too
trying not to look down at the keyboard..lols.. and waiting for mass..

oh yeah... we had lunch w/R/bf and his f~ there was this dangerous plate of really crunchy noodles with some soft parts... i got confused with the diff textures.. and got one of those hard noodles stuck in my throat... so i just swallowed..it was a bit painful..but it tasted gd lols~ the fine line b/w pleasure and pain?
anyhoo~ yes there was a general consensus of "i approve R" .... hehe~ a v. sweet couple*^^*

swamped...

2005-02-21T18:49:00.000-08:00

in assignments, essays, and an exam
*sigh*
but oddly still glad
I am

with Karleng @ 2 in the morning...

2005-01-24T23:13:00.000-08:00

rosA~*jasminetea says:
hmmm ok.. but then what would we put for the Comparison to partner's fieldnotes i wonder

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
i know! when i was writting it it was like...isnt it looking for patterns again?

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
but my TA said it was okay

rosA~*jasminetea says:
thiws suxxx

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
u r going to be done soon!

rosA~*jasminetea says:
im only on 2nd pg

rosA~*jasminetea says:
gonna go get some tea..

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
once u get the pattern done u got the most troublesome part out

rosA~*jasminetea says:
*sigh*

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
i wish i cld be positive so im going to give words of "encouragement" as T. Newmeyer says "suck it up" as J. Veugelers says "continue with our disenchanted Toronto life"

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
lols~ u r so funny

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
thanks for making me laugh.. iwas feeling really desparate bck there

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
we are proletariats. we will fight the beogeos together!!!!!

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
anyway get on with ur work. we all need some sleep

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
indeed! lols~ i was actually going to compare univesity life to proletariat for the marx positionppr

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
u can still do it with weber

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
h,mm~ maybe i will dunno

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
do this first

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
i found our convo so funny i published it on my blog

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
whats ur blog addy?

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
http://blueskies4eva.blogspot.com

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
what false consciousness. we cant have blue skies forever!...yikes! im on too much caffeine!

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
what can i say... I have a dreamm~*

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
ive got a blog too!

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
and we use the same background

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
really? whats the addy

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
just mines black

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
www.kaleng.blogspot.com

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
hehe~ its Prof V isnt it

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
ah but of course.

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
charlene has a crush on him

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
R u serious???

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
thats why she did tocqueville!

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
haha

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
lols~ that hilarious

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
i beg. i wanted to laugh

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
losl~ but i guess all of us have romantic fantasies of our male profs

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
its the imbalance in pwr

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
yeah but not baldy

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
lols~

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
sorry i got too mean

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
well u could says intellect wins over ..hair

the funny thing is. its 2pm in spore yet i have more people in canada online at 2am. says:
well i cant imagine him with a wig

rosA~*the de the:luv jasmine tea (v.fragrant) tastes like rose oolong bbt says:
lols~ such absurb images at 2:30 in the morning

logic

2005-01-14T09:38:00.000-08:00

cause and effect
specification
evidence
accountability

2004-12-25T12:14:00.000-08:00

law & ice

2004-12-25T12:06:00.000-08:00

hershey~*

HaPPy HoLidAyS~*

2004-12-25T11:28:00.000-08:00

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

OMG~~!!

2004-12-16T13:40:00.000-08:00

need 2 watch
SPONGEBOB the MOVIE~!!
so excitedd.... i laugh like a maniac when i'm watching that show..
my mum complains that i sound like an insane hyena... lols

ooo~ & Bridget Jones~ read quite crap-like reviews...
but yours truly remains faithful to Jones~
that Olivia Newton book was pretty funny~hmm yet seems too controversial.. with the AlQueda (err did i spell that rite??) terrorists... to come out in theatres...
lols.. imagine actors playing bin Laden & terrorists
creepy...

anyhoo. gtg~ need to pick up some junkie at ktown for sis
she has an exam tomarrow ( unni him nae~!)
1) will try not to rub in the fact that my exams are finished~* lahh~
2) and be a gd sis by being miserable & providing sugar-loaded goodies until tomarrow!

good plan~

hmm..

2004-12-16T11:56:00.000-08:00

my exams are finally over, but there's still a mountain load of work ahead of me...
the holidays are just not what it used to be..
a time of total freedom and joyous slackingoff~
now it's a "humbug" of time..
but at least i'll be able to see my friends.. and go skating! yes~ i want to skate!
aha..j will teach me to spinnnnn~~*on the ice
anyhoo.. tons of homeworks..
but i've my plans of cocktails & multicoloured lightbulbs
and yess... shopping~ endless shopping!!!!
i'm a madwoman in shop-mode~!~
someone restrain me from the mall!
hehe... i miss my family in k.. esp my couz ( unni i luvu~!) & grandpa ( sarang haeyo)
my goal: to actually do all the work i need to do over the break
1) readings for English
2) notes for SOC200 & 203
3) bio <--totally bombed the midterm~~: need to study!
4) prep for essays!! my numerous- neverending esssays
my new year's resolution.. so far
1) STUDY HARDER!!! You slacker~!
2) be a nicer person..
3) target and mobilize
...

interesting... for soc203, we are observing ppl eating at Eaton centre for our structured observation project.. (arrr...need to do the readings for that too..) hmm.. will keep posted..my slot is after the break

=) MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!!

Christmas seems to be all about commercialism these days...
let's not fall into that vapidhole~
not that its wrong to enjoy the holiday cheer, but...
do something kind & charitable today! something that J stood for~*
~ that's the true spirit of christmas~
***HUGS 2 ALL***

....argh

2004-12-07T17:22:00.000-08:00

난 바보.... >.<

finally...

2004-12-05T13:46:00.000-08:00

took me ages to log on for some reason...
taking a break from typing my soc notes... to type more..(0dd) on blog
just found out that my cousin is gonna have a baby~
so strange how fast time flies
whose next i wonder...
it seems so far away.. but its actually closer than you think
hehe... like my exams
i'm not so sure if its even worth typing up my notes..
should probably be reading...

yesterday, had a long talk w/ d
about the direction my life is going
seems aimless & all over the place
i need to choose one and focus
.. know one perfectly, then build on it
have courage~
even if you fail.. start over again, and again, and again
that's true learning.
stop wasting time~ just do it!( dont want to be cliche~ but thats how i feel)
thank you
for being there.. for teaching.. for loving us

while i was waiting...

2004-12-03T11:09:00.000-08:00

for a computer..
i found this quaint little book of Canadian poetry
Poetry 62
flipping through the pages, i found
"Soliloquy to Absent Friends" by D.G. Jones

-v-

The last pure leaves
struggle in the autumn wind;
hosts have fallen, mulching the ground-
would that all the seasons of the soul
expired beneath so rich a shroud.
Yet more to be admired - the clear
structure of the trees, patient for winter, hold
bleak converse with themselves.
Let us be bare,
let us be poor,
such poverty makes honest souls,
and solitude is capital for love.
Out of that silent contemplation of the trees,
amid the vast condour of the snows,
rich in loneliness, will come
drenched in sunlight, as from empty seas,
myriad wings and leaves - as though our tongues
grew green with language and informed a world.

yesterday~*

2004-11-27T18:36:00.000-08:00

renee & joyce came to look for me at Robarts just as i was leaving..
lols~ if i'd left just 2min before, they would have missed me
chance~ =)
had Tokyo Sushi w/ joyce, renee, and vinca~!
(hehe... they helped me make up questions 4 my survey)
my two muses:jR
then it was over to james joyce pub where,
joyce: brown cow
vinca: mudslide
renee: fuzzy navel
me: cranberry and soda
hehe... the bartender was stingy on the 'spike' but 'nice' 2 vinc
awwwelll~ it's ok we got enough @ joys' (vodka blue, hot choc w/baileys)
those shots were yummie and fun!
too much choc and alc yesterday~
joys christmas tree was so cute=)

theGrinch is on tv.. christmas already?
im not ready!

arghhh...

2004-11-26T10:53:00.000-08:00

i can't believe i missed biochem class again >.<
... i can't believe i slept for 8h on a desk
maybe i'm getting too comfortable being 'uncomfortable'
strange...
joyce is coming today~! lahh
but i dont know if i'll be able to see her =(
stupid soc project..
at least i've found the articles for the project...but
i still haven't found a topic for the essay
i feel like i've a touch of cold... will go home as soon as proj is done=)
it'll be nice to see my family again
they're probably wondering if i've fallen off the face of the earth
hmm... i need a sociology muse

today...

2004-11-25T11:23:00.000-08:00

fell asleep in bioclass....
while semi-conscious, experienced a strong urge
to ditch everything and go shopping....
i need moral support~

another allniter @ robarts...
its become my second home
this time soc project and essay
will it ever end?
i wish time would go slower
there's just too much to do...
i can't believe its already thursday...

hmm: watched a nature documentary on fishery last nite (1-3am)
~ i like watching bears eat pacific salmon
~ i didnt know tuna can grow so big!
~ made me paranoid about accumulation of PCB in farmed fish
~ david suzuki said "hell" - it was funny

funny moment:
hunger after 2.5h biolab (8:40pmish)
cold and rainy (frigid)
hot instant noodles at the bus shelter infront of AC
odd stares from people walking by, people in their cars, a guy in the shelter
awwwell..i was happy=)
trying not to cough (hot air from the noodle cup and cold air outside)
with my noodles and chopstick
it's not the tests and assignments you remember....
but odd and funny moments like this

언니~! *^^*보고싶어요~*난 요즘 학교도서관에서 살고있는것같아...어재 춥고 비오는 밤에 버스타는집에 서서 라면을 먹었씀...난 내가 너무 불쌍해..

all smiles~*

2004-11-22T21:16:00.000-08:00

mmm....icecream~i love it! esp w/u! hehe~ let's get f-a-t 2gether!

all niter @ Robarts agains
~it feels like a second home
this time an essay on Marx (means of productions etc...)
i'm slowly getting through the readings
hopefully i can start on the essay soon
getting sleepy
but time is going so fast~ gotta keep up

day2: robarts all niter~*

2004-11-18T23:06:00.000-08:00

hmm...
vending cappunicino at 2:07am
delicious~*

i could so get used to this~

an all-niter @ Robarts~*

2004-11-17T18:50:00.000-08:00

today i'm staying all nite @ Robarts Library
must finish my 6pg english essay on the Canterbury Tales
Starbucks keeps me awake..what would i do without it?
the coffee is so dark and thick~ its almost syrupy... =)
it feels strange not to go home
but i've got my toothbrush and alarmclock *^^*
so i plan to be here for quite a while~
sis will be joining me at 3Am at the computers
if we can't stand it~ mums offered to pick us up in the middle of the nite..
but i dont think thats going to happen
i've already packed my breakfast and lunch for tomarrow
instant noodle and more instant noodle
but i forgot to bring a change of clothing....
apart from a sweater just in case it gets cold
i like 24h libraries=)
lols... i think i'll actually be on time for my 10am bichem class tomarrow
vinca will be very surprised~

Voltaire

2004-11-05T13:36:00.000-08:00

(pseudo for François-Marie Arouet)

"Those who can make you believe absurdities can make you commit atrocities." —Voltaire

"Liberty of thought is the life of the soul." (from Essay on Epic Poetry, 1727) -Voltaire

here's another

2004-11-05T13:29:00.000-08:00

... quotes like these make me enjoy philosophy so much more~*

When Rousseau sent Voltaire a copy of his book The Social Contract, Voltaire answered him with a letter in which he said,

"I have received your new book against the human race, and thank you for it. Never was such a cleverness used in the design of making us all stupid. One longs, in reading your book, to walk on all fours. But as I have lost that habit for more than sixty years, I feel unhappily the impossibility of resuming it."

http://www.hyperhistory.net/apwh/essays/comp/cw20VoltairRousseau32200123.htm

ahh sociology...funny quote

2004-11-03T20:15:00.000-08:00

also shows you how passionate they were about the freedom of man...

"Men will never be free till the last king is strangled with the entrails of the last priest."

- Denis Diderot (a.k.a. bloodthirsty and blasphemous heretic)

opportunities...

2004-10-29T20:24:00.000-07:00

its everywhere... must see it, catch it. Believe it can be done...Learn from the mistakes andexperiences. give it all, the chance is there to take... recognize it

v. good rational quote

2004-10-29T20:20:00.000-07:00

"love is a fair game" JN

its..

2004-10-22T13:49:00.000-07:00

always the hardest to start...

The Waking (1953) by Theodore Roethke

2004-10-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close beside me, which are you?
God bless the Ground! I shall walk softly there,
And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how?
The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair;
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do
To you and me, so take the lively air,
And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go

an autumn day at the park~*

2004-10-16T22:44:00.001-07:00

mommy&sunho

2004-10-16T22:44:00.000-07:00

oori *^__^*

unni~*

2004-10-14T23:47:00.000-07:00

i miss you ...
this is our pet rabbit, hershey
this is me on birthday
this is the sushi craving i'm now experiencing at 2:48am
...so much

2004-10-14T23:34:00.000-07:00

bday cocktails~*

2004-10-14T23:28:00.000-07:00

sushi cravings *yum*

close call

2004-10-14T13:27:00.000-07:00

i almost lost my essay today...
as i ran across the campus
horrible images flashed across my mind

i'd left my floppy at gerstein & forgot it there
an essay-er's nightmare
^_^*

achoo~*

2004-10-13T11:13:00.000-07:00

i've a cold...but i still need to write my engessay by friday
king richardII - bet he never got a cold
~vapour action halls dont work~
~echinacea tastes funny~
~and kleenex isnt that soft!~
feeling kinda miserable...3 more hours till biolab
3 more hours to write
write
write
...ok...i'll write

its been ages...

2004-10-13T10:51:00.000-07:00

since the last time i've blogged
there has been many changes and experiences in between
not all the pages into the world could contain them
besides they are not to be trapped but felt...so
let's skip
*^^*
ps. the newblogs are great& i dont have to get all mussedup w/comments
*yey*